I was nonchalantly open with people about the outline of my life thus far during those darker times. Different people who had different places in my life, their responses, regardless of the person, to me always felt the same. Pity. Pity for me having gone through whatever they imagined the details of my life to be, pity for my lost, pity that I would never be normal again, pity. No matter how nonchalant my delivery, pity always lingered in their response. At least to me it did. Pity just reminds you of the pit you’re in. I’m still not a fan of it, pity.
Today I know. I understand. I needed to feel that. The shame. The loneliness. The emptiness. The pit. This pit that I was in…. was dug especially for me as well as all the joy and happiness that eventually followed in my life.
A bitter pill to swallow that saying, “gotta take the bad with the good.” A bitter pill the size of an enormous pit. Alone I couldn’t climb out of that darkness. I had to learn that. I was a slow learner then. But that just meant I learned all the more. Glass being half full and all. All our lives come with good and not so good and sometimes seemingly unbearable moments. Choose to live. Choose to learn when being taught. Choose to allow Him to free you from your time in the pit. When the timing is right He will deliver. For He…He is a faithful God.
Psalms 25:10 All the ways of the Lord are loving and faithful for those who keep the demands of his covenant.
…We, as people, can be so unfaithful. To loved ones, bosses, ourselves even. He knows we mess up. The great thing is He loves us anyway and He, He never messes up. Who better to keep a covenant with.
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