Birthday resolution

I decided to make a birthday resolution because well, why wait for new years to do a self check? As often as one can is my advice.

Taking a look at life’s twist and turns this past year, I…Remembering the foolish mistakes and happy turnabout…I am grateful. Being that what it was and now being what it is, my birthday resolution will be to keep on keeping on. I will continue in faith to be the me that He sees. For one who has considered at one time to take her own life, this resolution isn’t made lightly. It is as simple as it is difficult, to live but… not only to live but to live with peace, in peace. Truly understanding that even in the mist of hardship, His peace will reign. Shining through my life, likeĀ a beacon, a beacon so profound with its beam it warms my soul.

I will lean towards peace, my inner peace, my beacon.

As corny as it may sound, the ones out there who’ve truly felt derailed by life can understand; when light is finally evident in your life after suffocating in the dark, alone, or so you/ I thought, for so many years, your like a dog with a bone, a beggar with a hot meal after being deprived for so long. Call it what you will. Call me what you will, but I refuse to let go. I refuse to give back or give away my meal. I refuse to let go of the light , my beacon. Jesus.

So, yes my birthday will bring forth more of me pushing my way towards He. He’s got me this far.